Familiarity

I chased something I didn't want, so naturally when I caught it, I didn't appreciate it. Catch and release, so why am I hating myself for letting it go?
The heart is fickle, and chooses the opposite if what the brain tells it to. So I'm missing something I didn't want... How do you fill a void, created by ignorance? Every bone in my body, every ounce of my being said,"don't do this again." but the heart... It gets what it wants, and ruins the perfectly functioning cycle set forth to save the soul from injury, humiliation and pain.
This is where music is born, poetry conceived, and art sketched, in the throes of regret.