After weeks of insomnia I finally got back on medication. After just two days I had a long lucid dream last night. I was dreaming of my aunt and cousins again, at one point I was in a room by myself and I looked at my arms, as soon as I saw my tattoos weren't normal I became lucid. I was on my way to leave the house when I passed my cousin, I stopped, took her in another room. I had my goodbye talk that I never got to have with her, said everything I wanted to, and I let all of the sadness in me go, I cried, then continued with a more normal lucid dream of flying and things of that nature.
The brain works in funny ways, you can achieve more in two minutes in a lucid dream, than you can in weeks of therapy. The conscious mind is stubborn, but the subconscious is open to suggestion. I made peace with my cousins memory, I love her and I miss her, but I've moved on.
Goodbye Amy.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Hello blog-diary thingy
I've been abusing you as of late... Have you missed me? I'm sorry, we need to hangout more, I've just been busy.
One would assume that I've been up to a lot of nothing, thus the silence, on the contrary I've kept myself quite entertained. Today will be the first day I practice with a new band, should be fun. Photography has been going well, and we are about to amp up the velocity once again. xXRx and the brothers darqly are playing live in march, to support the new xXRx album, darqpress 2 year anniversary, making it a FiXT promotional night, it's going to be at club zeal on tormented Tuesday. It's taking alot of my time to plan, practice, promote, and I still need to put together projection footage. Hopefully tax returns will arrive, and I'll have a new toy on stage :)
I've been off my meds for over three weeks, which isn't fun, but I'm coping. I go see my dr in a little over a week, I'm a bit upset about how my treatment over the last month has digressed.
Going to eureka springs in a few weeks, staying in an old hotel, doing photography, and relaxing in a different city...
Currently setting up photography pricing, since demand has gotten bigger, we are adjusting accordingly. Blah blah blah. I did stuff. Maybe I can sleep now.
One would assume that I've been up to a lot of nothing, thus the silence, on the contrary I've kept myself quite entertained. Today will be the first day I practice with a new band, should be fun. Photography has been going well, and we are about to amp up the velocity once again. xXRx and the brothers darqly are playing live in march, to support the new xXRx album, darqpress 2 year anniversary, making it a FiXT promotional night, it's going to be at club zeal on tormented Tuesday. It's taking alot of my time to plan, practice, promote, and I still need to put together projection footage. Hopefully tax returns will arrive, and I'll have a new toy on stage :)
I've been off my meds for over three weeks, which isn't fun, but I'm coping. I go see my dr in a little over a week, I'm a bit upset about how my treatment over the last month has digressed.
Going to eureka springs in a few weeks, staying in an old hotel, doing photography, and relaxing in a different city...
Currently setting up photography pricing, since demand has gotten bigger, we are adjusting accordingly. Blah blah blah. I did stuff. Maybe I can sleep now.
Friday, December 31, 2010
New years
I'm spending it with exactly who I'd love to be around throughout the year. Of all the places I could be... This is it.
Diary of a lucid dreamer chaper one
Without my medication I'm slapped right back into insomnia, so it's important to enjoy the little sleep I do get. I've refined some techniques I used to use to have lucid dreams.
The handiest trick I've learned, is a revision to the technique where you look at a watch or cellphone regularly during the day, and ask, "am I sleeping?". The dream world is too unstable to recreate these objects without them moving around. I've learned I can use something I always have around, no matter what I'm doing... My arm tattoos. Like a charm, everytime I look at them in my sleep, the tattoos crawl up and down my arms, as my subconscious tries to emulate the actual tattoos. Instantly I realize I'm sleeping and become lucid.
The handiest trick I've learned, is a revision to the technique where you look at a watch or cellphone regularly during the day, and ask, "am I sleeping?". The dream world is too unstable to recreate these objects without them moving around. I've learned I can use something I always have around, no matter what I'm doing... My arm tattoos. Like a charm, everytime I look at them in my sleep, the tattoos crawl up and down my arms, as my subconscious tries to emulate the actual tattoos. Instantly I realize I'm sleeping and become lucid.
Friday, December 24, 2010
The ugli
It's Christmas eve. My doctor failed me, and I've run out of medicine, it's dangerous and I'm aggrevated.
The bad
The kids are coming which is wonderful, but there's not much food here, I hope they enjoy themselves, not alot to do when it's cold out.
The good
Had a great time Tuesday, suspension and great music. Fresh holes in lucid make him happy, previewing xXRx was cool too. Gave away a few CDs before the album launches.
I'll ellaborate more later.
I'll ellaborate more later.
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